What Makes It Not Happen?

Well, I'm back. It's been a long time, but I think I can explain:

Since the middle of last October, I've been adrift in a creative wasteland. I think it was about the time that the economy tanked, and three places that show my work went out of business. I crawled into my own head and thought: Forget it. Why mess with this? I couldn't pull myself out of depression and torment even by contemplating the show I have scheduled in May of '10.

Then something happened to break me out, but I don't know exactly what that was, looking back..... But never mind: I seem to be on the mend and working again.

What is this that shuts us down? Maybe it's related to the silent, nagging fear hovering at the edge of our work that our success is a mistake, and oneday we'll wake up and it will have disappeared. Or just maybe it's a good and natural remission when our direction is undergoing a shift and needs to collect energy. If that's so, I'd like to encounter it without the depression and torment, knowing that oneday, in its own time, it will give way to productivity again.

So I'll begin again, both with the painting and the blogging. I hope someone out there will look and read and respond.....